Confusion

I realized today that what I think is "right" is not necessarily the case. Most of the time in life, what we perceive is the "right" thing is really not. Life is always introducing us to alternatives to what we think is the correct way to go about something. I've found myself befuddled as I consider the intentions behind my "relationship strike" and even some other aspects of my life. Is it simply fear that is the driving force behind such convictions? It's difficult to say. Sometimes everything can seem so perfect and so right, and then walks in a whirlwind of confusion. 

I've found myself experiencing an internal battle. Maybe it's my pride that prolongs my belief in the strike because the other half of me fears that if I don't involve myself with someone that opportunity may never arise again. It's only a month until I leave for my two-month venture into Europe. What if I don't act upon this and I live on in regret? I did achieve a fairly decent-length "strike period"... Maybe my "strike" led me to someone sooner than I anticipated? It might be possible. On the other hand, what if I'm just confusing the signals? 

At this point I'm honestly considering letting my emotions take the lead in this situation. If they tell me something is right, I will follow their lead (and vice versa). However, at this moment in time I'm utterly confused and hoping for a moment of enlightenment soon!

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Considering getting a tattoo (sooner or later). If I get one it will probably be a word of particular meaningfulness to me and then translated into Celtic. I think that would be very cool. Coming up with the word will be the task. Therefore, I don't anticipate some "ink" in the upcoming months. Maybe I'll go to Ireland first, just to reinforce the idea behind it.